| So I was looking through the different posts I have on this site and I found this. I wrote it March of 2007 and I realized that I really like it. I'm not exactly sure what to call it because it's not a poem and it's not like a journal entry but it reflects my personality pretty well. It gave me renewed hope and confidence in myself. I'm putting it on here in hopes that I can maybe inspire someone else, if not at least you guys can get to know me a little better:) Sunshine!!! Dont you just love the first days of summer. When the sun finally beats down on you and you feel the warm breeze run through your hair after months of cold. I love it! I sit in class and cant wait to get outside and feel the sun on my skin. When I look out the window in class I get this kind of tingly nervous feeling that runs through me. It reminds of when I really like someone. You know when you really like someone and you think about them and that tingle runs through you, I dont know how to describe it other then feeling really excited and nervous at the same time, but its a good kinda of nervous, the kinda of nervous that makes you realize your alive and living. I know thats a really weird way of decribing how summer makes me feel but its true. I wonder if its anything like love. I wonder if the tingly nervous feeling intensifies, I hope it does. I hope its a hundred times better then people say. I hope its like floating through the air and walking on clouds, like nothing can hurt you or bring you down, like you are the only two people in the world and he is all you need and ever want and your the same to him. I think thats why I'm so obssessed with books and movies that have a romantic base line. I want so badly to have what they have, to experience that kind of inconditional, till death do we part, love. The books and movies give me something to believe in, they give me hope and faith, and if you dont have that then what do you have? People can take away everything else from you , they can take your home, money, cars, phones, computers whatever, but they can never take away your hope, faith, dreams and love. So people may say I have my head in the cloud that I dream too much and wish too hard, but what else do I have? And even if I dont get my true love or the things I dream for I know I wont give up without a fight, I will always follow my heart and not let anything or one get me down, I will stand on my own if I have to and I will make it. Sure if I try I can fail, but at least I tried. This is my promise to myself, never give up, never loss sight of my dreams, always have hope, and never settle. And if I never find my one true love at least I have my books and my imagination to fall back on and they will get me through. I realize now that as I grow up the world is going to try to bring my down, people are going to try to change me but I refuse to let them get to me, I will always be my own person, I will always stand strong, no matter what life throws at me, I will live through it with my head held high. If by chance I do get down and feel like I cant go on I know that I have best friends who will always be there for me when I need them and will hold me up when I want to fall. They wont let me fall and I wouldn't let them fall. If we cant be strong for ourselves we will be strong for each other. I live LIVE every day to the best, LOVE unconditionally, and LAUGH until my eyes water!! This is my ANTHEM, my PROMISE. It's not where your from, its where you end up, and the journey you took to get there that makes you who you are ~Me |